An underrated yet holds a lot of emotional weight— In My Veins by Andrew Belle. It contains very vulnerable and delicate lyrics, expressing a feeling of loneliness, yearning and undesirability. The worst kind of feeling one is able to endure, right?
Knowing what I wish is something beyond my power, so distant and unattainable. Even worse, it’s not something that appears in my thoughts; it has existed since a long time ago, very close to my heart, down to every core.
It haunts every inch of my body, colonizes my rationales, and in the end, it inflicts my veins — the veins that control the synergy of my lung and heart. And you’re there, in it, in me, permeating every part of my being with undeniable power and influence.
As persistently as a human being could ever be, I can’t get you out. I tried every trick in the book, tried to replace your presence, and even raised my hand, begging the Almighty, but I couldn’t. Despite my many efforts, I still can’t shake you from my mind.
As if everything inside me is working against me, convincing me that success is impossible and that attempting to move on from you will lead to failure. As if my mind is fooling me, continuously telling me that you will always be a part of me that I can’t get rid of. As if all my veins threaten me that they will cease to function if I dare to get you out of it.
One could possess so much power, but when it comes to letting you go, I don’t have any. I am unable to deny the fact that you are an integral part of me, as you remain intertwined within me, influencing even my fingers as I type these words.
The depth of my attachment towards you is something beyond a mind could comprehend; it’s inexplicable. I can’t articulate the sensation of your presence coursing through my veins, taking charge and consuming me from within. And I’m too powerless to get you out.
