Although almost a year had gone by since we abandoned our routines, it only took one moment for everything to come flooding back and bring me to tears.
The Road
The road feels familiar, as though nothing has changed since that night. The night it all ended, the night we both understood that there was nothing left to fight for, the night I lost you, for good.
Do you recall my swift arrival when I used to drive at breakneck speed to see you? I’d make a quick U-turn and pause momentarily to order us a delightful snack to savor. Sometimes, I even got your favorite gummy bears to make you happy like the child within you that I adore.
The Song
Rhymes can trigger memories we put great effort not to remember. These memories may be buried deep in our minds and locked in our hearts. Even a small reminder can cause us to feel overwhelming sadness that may take months to overcome. It’s like being pulled under by a wave and struggling to reach the shore again.
As for us, the song “Those Eyes” was the perfect representation of our relationship. We both tended to unconsciously notice and appreciate the little things. Our love for each other was so strong that making sure the other person was content came naturally, rather than feeling like an obligation. It was something we both deeply desired from the bottom of our hearts.
The Place
My hands never trembled as significantly as that night, entering the local jazz bar we used to visit, but without you this time.
It was the perfect place, our place. A combination of flavorful booze, a beautiful melody, and your hand around my back. As we walked in, it was like entering another world, our own little planet where you always knew how to make every moment heartwarming and magical.
The Smile
If God is not in our favor, why would He keep creating those coincidences and unexpected moments? Like the moment I saw you in the crowd, and looked into those beautiful eyes of yours. It was then that I knew I would never find another being who I could love as exceptional as my love for you.
You had a profound impact on my soul. You formed it and brought it to life, but then you left, and now it is shattered. My soul yearns for your presence day and night, calling for you, seeking comfort in memories of you, but those memories only bring pain. And I hate it so much.
I hate everything related to you. I hate our road, song, and place, but above all else, I hate your smile because that is no longer mine to be gazed at.
